It’s great to wake up close to screaming, unable to close your eyes and for a long minute seeing things with your waking eyes that aren’t there. And not being able to listen to the sound of snoring, even from a cold, because it was the sound that preceeded the thing’s appearance, alongside the people throwing things at you and mocking, insulting, and touching you without your permission at your place of employ in said dream so you’re not allowed to fight back. And SHE kept appearing.
And before you know it you’re 24 and too afraid to go back sleep and keep getting raw terror at every fucking sound. Not that anyone gives a shit. I just can’t function. And this is what I had access to where I can pretend someone might hear me.